Please Read This to Understand What's Happened

Hi guys, Noel here.
For the past 3-4 years I had been moirails with a girl you guys might know, YiPyrope, Jyoti is her first name. 

Jyoti broke up with me three months ago. 
Because of that I've been fucked up, I found she was the main source of my joy. I ended up breaking up with my Matesprite (who i still regard as a friend) and i slipped into depression. 
To make it worse I'm in highschool now and I've become scarringly depressed, again.
I say again because when Jyoti broke up with me I attempted suicide. I cut myself, she fucked me up so god damn bad.


 Then I realized something, it wasn't me, it was her, I became furious, and I still am. 
I wasted 4 years on someone for them to just toss me aside when i tried my god damn best to be on here for her. 
hell, i'd get in TROUBLE for staying on here for so long because i wanted to help her. 
So if you've been wondering why Im not on here as much, there you go. 

Jyoti was the only reason i stayed on here so much,(that and a few other friends) im still staying on here, but just not as much. 

 Please stay safe and thank you for reading this.